A letter to my beloved friends , you all are close to my heart ...

 A letter to my beloved friends , you all are close to my heart ... 

......I am so sorry friends.. I can't express and can't hold on more.. I am shattered from within like .. I am sorry I troubled you all a lot.. please excuse me don't take any burdon upon your heart.. it's my emotional turbulance and my inability to overcome the problems..  everybody have their own bundle of problems so I thought we all would come together and be a team and make our weaknesses put to work and try make it our strength.. and face life with unity.. I hoped that you all will come forward to open up yourself and share views and ideas and daily routine etc to make our friendship strong..  and so on..I am unable to talk now... My heart is in great pain not because of you all but it's getting no releif from anywhere ..  not your fault ... I need to get strong but how..I have no experience to get stronger I wanted to learn it from you all... I opened my life u in front of you all I shared if you all are not sharing how will I understand and learn from it.. I know I have told and talked too much .. some unnecessary things in a lots and pots which could have made you all  think otherway about me..but l shoud know that first to put my side n view and to hear your opinion and suggestion over it.. but nothing's happening... I tryied to hold myself but I am broke now I feel... some days are too heavy I think today is like that one ..I am afraid I should not give up in life.. I don't want to give up..  I don't want to put an end ... I want to hear from you all whatever it may be .. please forgive me for my mistakes these days I spoke to you all too much.. I regret it now.. I am extremely sorry.... Right now I feel it too heavy ...

What should I do.... Please suggest guys .. 

Should I leave from your group so that I should not expect from you all .. if I am Here I will expect.. 

I had planned to design a future with us all as a team but there's somethings wrong and I am not aware of it... 

You all can talk to me in person if you all wish or / else on conference call would do... Whatever possible and ok for you all .. 

Since you all are young I bothered you all too much ... Again I say sorry and I must thank you for everything thanks for your unlimited love .. I love you all very much ..I don't know my step is right or wrong..cause I feel  I am lost .. please guide me gen z s 

..don't take it as if I am putting pressure on you all...  I may  learn something new or good lesson from this or overcome my problem or ...or else..